Postcards from England
It's been a month since my body arrived back in Colorado from my time in... England. My mind and soul have taken a little longer to settle back in the circles of ordinary life. But this doesn't phase me, because I'm not restless, or angsty, or resistant to normal life. It's more as if the taste of my time away tinges my time here at home. The peace of it lingers. I'm loathe to let it go, who knows. Maybe it will stay...
Maybe the time I spent wandering amidst long, sheep-starred, dapple down hills
and in mornings spent staring into an upside down bowl of limpid, blue light,
and the early hours spent in reading, in pondering, and in a hushedness of thought I have not touched in months,
Gentled my hungry soul. Calmed the striving of my heart.
The blaze of my questions... as to future... to life... to purpose... died down.
But a new warmth came. Like the crackle of a well-made fire in a cottage on an autumn day. When you come into a room and know yourself home. Home, as much as any body can be in this world. And for me, this time, it wasn't yet a physical place.
It was a state of soul. A healedness of sight. A gentlednesss. I found a bunch of truths that I had dropped amidst my struggle to figure out my future.
That God is lovely. That the poor in spirit are blessed, that I am blessed when I need God's help most. That the humble inherit God's earth. And that God's good earth sings, and thrums, and speaks his heart afresh each day into the people whose existence he wills... and holds... and never forsakes.
That love; of God, and his people, and the beauty he has made is the great, burning work to which we humans are called.
That all else really is naught compared to him. (But I needed to quiet to say it and know that I meant it in truth.)
And the joy of it all is with me still.